I am tired of reaching out. I am tired of trying. I am tired of pumping energy out and allowing myself to feel the need for contact with others and not be able to make it happen.

I had some emotional battering today and feel I have no safe harbors to retreat to. I hate hurting and I hate crying. I hate that those that are suppose to keep me from hurting are the ones that led me there.

As I repeat to myself over and over, it will be different after some time has past. Tomorrow may not be any better but at least it will be different.

Yeah, there is a light at the end of the tunnel but I still feel deeply in the tunnel with little to no energy to move. As some people say, A quiet Gina is not a good thing.