For those that are concerned, I have been awake since 1am this morning. I think I had a nap for maybe half and hour to an hour around 8 and am now currently sitting in the SF library (4pm) after spending a couple hours with a friend before he had to go to work.

I am up, I am out of the house, I am in a different city, I have walked around the Castro, I have talked with people, I am surrounded by people and books.

I did eat a whopping breakfast at Hometown buffet since my food intake has been previously low. I have a craving for potato, garlic, pesto pizza now due to where my friend at lunch. But I am still pretty full.

Part of me is glad people are noticing that I am screwing things up. Part of me completely blows it off and knows I have it in hand. This is all within my capabilities. I think I am sort of trying to find out where it finally leaves my capabilities.

I have written a lot of stuff that will be showing up in my LJ over the next few days I think. It is easy to write with my eyes closed trying to sleep. Much harder once I open them and have to deal with the physical world. I feel like at least two dimensions are shaved off to fit into this 3D existence. Dreamland is a much more desirable place to be.