Today ended up being rather full and I had some minor disappointments and whatever the name is of the same thing in the other direction. Negatives followed by positives.

Getting up – faced with lugging 10 hardbound library books on bart to SF / getting a call from Fennifer which woke me up enough that I remembered I am suppose to drive into the City today making everything a lot easier and faster.

Lunch with Jennifer – typical disappointment of only having one hour to hang together and she has to go back to work / She bought me lunch and I had a very good, healthy salad.

Tap plastics – they are thinking of closing down the vinyl section at this location. / I got the stick on vinyl I came in for and this time didn’t sweat the price ($2 a foot).

SF Library – Forgot it was closed for Veteran’s Day / City Center Farmer’s Market day, $1 per basket berries (end of day price) , got one basket of the best raspberries – True Gina Berries. They were divine. I got only one of the Gina berries because I knew I would attempt to eat all of them and I think they go bad over very little time. They become normal raspberries and then they start tasting of mold. I got two baskets of strawberries because I figured people would appreciate me giving extra strawberries.

Driving for Dinner with Grace – Since I needed to be in the City later I was planning on staying for dinner. But when I dropped of the food, I got “Thanks for driving, bye.” It could be they are used to the other two times I have driven, I leave and if I said something I probably could have stayed but it felt like not the right thing. Two women that used to live at the SRO were snuck a plate of food by the Father/Reverand and I asked them if they would like some strawberries. They got the spare basket. / I drove to where I was going next (downtown), found parking on the street and dosed in my car for an hour. I think I needed it. I was also parked in front of a really neat courtyard that I explored later.

Focus Group – I showed up early for the focus group and waited half an hour for it to start. At the start time, a woman came out and told us they always overbook the groups and called off the names of those that would be let in. I waited through everyone else’s name and mine wasn’t called. I was very sad. That listing of names and mine not being on it has some painful memories attached to it and I was very excited that they wanted my opinion on cheese. My attitude was I wanted to be part of the population that things are tailored to and you don’t even have to pay me. / They paid me anyway, I got to go home early, this didn’t could as participation so I am eligible to be on another focus group if one comes up that fits me.

So minor disappointment that had positive sides as well. The reason this is important to track is I typically don’t handle disappointments well. They were the same as pain. There is no difference. I have learned how to handle the little ones much better. I can be sad about something but it doesn’t hurt. It can just be a disappointment instead of an injury. Yay me!

The Gina Berries are the big score for the day. Yay Gina Berries!