You don’t call and we are out of contact and I care. When I think of what you can give me, I feel sad and feel ok about it. When I think of what I can give you, I am mad and I hate you. That is because I hurt and it takes getting angry and disliking you to deal with the hurt.

This does not apply to anyone on LJ. It is only here so that I can remember which feeling went with which when I look back at this time.