So, I had this job scheduled. I went from having no work to having four weeks fully booked. Famine to Feast. Not all that pleased with it but it was good and I was dealing. Well, the Feast is back to Famine. Turns out that the work for the next two weeks has dried up so they don’t need me after all. Which is ok because I have an interview on Monday or Tuesday for another possibility and my old company has some work for me to do.

But…
Turns out a friend of mine, who I was going to recommend to replace me if I ended up with a different job, has been called in to do the job I was going to be doing tomorrow. Between her and me we are fine with it but really confused as to what is going on with the agency and the company. The scenario for why we are getting completely different stories sounds really bad. Both of us hate being lied to and work well being told what is going on. Don’t like my work, that is fine, here is a recommendation for someone you may like better. Like me but looking for more, fine. I don’t have a problem and if you need be because you can’t find someone else and I am available and need work, I am happy to do it. I even like knowing that this is a short term gig that I am helping out with what I can do for them while they look for what they really want.

I figure the agency is a lost cause. They are doing the CYA thing assuming the worst out of everyone and treating us that way. It makes me upset but they are a source of work and now that I know, I will include that in my understanding of them. I am going to try to talk to the client and see if she can tell me what is up but I am afraid that they might be hiding as well. I am very sad over that.

I hate that there are people out there that need to be treated like this and that the repercussions of this are bad enough that companies need to do shit like this to protect themselves. I hate that I can’t be seen as who I am and be treated in an appropriate manner.

I was very pleased with how I was handling this morning having my job disappear on me and being ok with it and heading toward productivity. I have some con stuff to work on and I was excited to get started on that. I had contacted a friend to spend the day with. I have open space for other people that want to schedule me for things. It was good. Then this discommunication thing came up and it is icky. At least it isn’t a dissolve into depression thing, it is an upset angry thing. It could be a depression thing if I stop moving but I have some momentum now so I am going to try to keep with it.