Well, I am going to miss the Tim Burton Ball because the trip to AZ has been rescheduled for this week. My mother has been getting the run around from her doctors and feels that she could use more support now figuring things out than for after surgury. I leave Thursday and return Tues. Guess it is a good thing that my weekend was free.

She is getting frustrated, confused and feeling like all her options are being taken away. She tried to set up appointments from Bali but they wouldn’t set up anything beyond her initial visit and that was set for a month after she got to the US. Now they keep losing her in the system and she needs leg surgury and back surgury and can’t get in touch with her primary doctor or the specialist. She has an alternative dr in Denver that has been recommended to her but that is more travel and more money. She is looking at returning to Bali and then coming back for the surgury. She can’t even get a straight answer out of people to find out if Medicare will pay for someone to come change her bandages during the 8 weeks of recovery.

My brother is nearby but he won’t even get involved with what is wrong with her let alone help navigate the system. It is a good thing that he doesn’t try to help because those two don’t work the same way and it would be a ball of frustration but it really hurts my mom that he doesn’t even care. (I got started on a rant that I don’t even want to bother posting. It just rattled on and would probably spur responses I would need to clarify or defend. So snip.)

My brother has switched from please come out to “we will be busy and you need ot be independent and we might be able to move the kids around so you can have a room.” My guess is that he still feels the same way but is wording things to protect himself. I am trying to figure out a way to inform him that is a bad idea when it comes to me and cut through the bullshit. I don’t want to make this trip. The trip is to see him and the family where they are and the timing is for my mom. The lack of enthusiasm really makes it harder to look forward to it being in any way a positive experience. I am already feeling regret that I ever agreed to it instead of just looking out for myself. I don’t have the money to toss away on the flight even though he and my mom are going to pitch in and I HATE traveling. I have been able to make LA work but even that doesn’t work all that well. I get enough high points from everyone at LosCon that it makes it worth it. I don’t see any high points for this trip and it is harder work. I am sure there will be good stuff but it sure is hard move forward without something bright pulling me onward.

While things weren’t going all that smoothly this weekend, I was handling things well and last week worked for the most part. It will be interesting to see how I handle this week.