This is just a status check. Doing better today than I was on Friday, I am still treading water but it doesn’t feel like I am going under as much.
This is just a status check. Doing better today than I was on Friday, I am still treading water but it doesn’t feel like I am going under as much.
Thanks for the update.
I was just thinking of checking in to see how you were doing.
So how was Faire?
Faire was nice. It wasn’t a full in depth thing like I would want but I managed not to be bored and got to briefly talk with some friends. It wore me out so it did show me that there is no point of even thinking of hitting Casa de Faire because it would be too warm.
Made me giggle
Just thought it would make you smile to know that when I read that title my dyslexia and penchant for Fruedian slips saw, “No underwear at the moment.”
Re: Made me giggle
I can see that.
And if it were true, I would probably be having a lot of fun to be in that state. Either that or I would really really need to do laundry (like not having done it in 3 or 4 months).
Ola, Chica – I’m sorry to hear you’re under the weather! I couldn’t tell at all when I saw you at Ren Faire on Saturday…you looked happy and healthy. I do hope all’s well with you! If you find you are up to going to Casa de Fruita, let me know. Perhaps we could car-pool down there.
I have had years of practice looking happy when I am massively depressed. It is a major way in which I deal with this. It would be quite entertaining when someone would ask something a particular way and I would tell them with a big smile while bouncing that I was really depressed and show them how dark it really was.
With some of the work I do with the enneagram, my type is thought of as all fun and frolic and I will take people by the hand and show them that dark that I generate the fun and frolic to get away from and they end up really somber and in a state of amazement.
Faire was not the place for my depressive cycle to show and I would have been miserable and made those around me miserable if I let it out. Sometimes it is all about the faking it until things lighten up on their own. I did have a nice time and it was worth getting out of the house for.
Black_reaver had it right when he pegged me as chronically, clinically depressed.
There are times when I am happy and healthy. This just isn’t one of them. I am just grateful that I can still enjoy some things. In the past, I hadn’t learned that skill. I wouldn’t enjoy anything, I just went through the motions.