Managed to get into work at 9:20am this morning.
I seem to have broken the part of me that gets scared straight into behaving when I get into trouble but I still managed to make something work this morning.
I had help from a friend calling me and only stayed in bed for half an hour after he hung up.
My alarm goes off at 6am. I have been trying to get up during the 7 o’clock hour and leave in the 8 o’clock hour so I can make it to work in the 9 o’clock hour. For the last couple of weeks, I have been getting into my car around 9:15am. All my tricks weren’t working. Today they worked a little better. I basically cranked everything up and had some help from my therapist last night.
I tried the soothing myself and saying I am ok, keeping my eyes closed until after I got up, my standard clocks set ahead, scaring myself into moving by getting in trouble with a person of authority, talking to a friend before getting up, my little exercises, breakfast waiting for me, aiming to be at work around 9am. I doubt this will work for long but maybe it will give me time to fix whatever is making this so bad.
I did manage to avoid eating any sugar yesterday and I need to work more on getting to bed sooner. I didn’t make it to bed until 11:15pm but I turned off the tv by 10:30 and curled up on the couch and started the slowing down process. When I went to bed, I turned off the lights as I went, shucked off my clothes and crawled in, and went to sleep. Yeah, I still had to wait for sleep to show up but I didn’t feel the need to read in bed prior to trying to sleep.
Good work! I hope you’re able to find an incentive which can motivate you.
Does it help to have the alarm clocks out of reach of the bed, so that you have to get up to turn them off?
–Ember–
Oh good lordy no. I can take a shower and end up in bed again. I am very talented at the going back to sleep thing.
There is an alarm clock that has a propeller that shoots off when the alarm goes off and you have to find it and put it back in before the alarm will shut up. I would probably get so annoyed by trying to find the propeller and not being able to for awhile that I would have to go back to bed to recover.
Good Job!
It’s hardly a carrot, but still you did good. You knew what you had to do, and made sure it got done. Here’s hoping success makes it easier to do tomorrow.
Much Love!
Re: Good Job!
Thanks.
Yeah, not really a carrot because I don’t seem to be able to see carrots right now. They may be there or not but it kind of doesn’t matter because I can’t see them for whatever reason.
But it worked. It doesn’t feel like it will work for long but I am focusing on one day at a time.
Who knows, I might get lucky and it is just a habit and I am in the process of breaking it.