I feel done.

This morning on my way to work I felt I had managed to avoid the downslide of the job situation. I had managed to skip over the terror and undermining feelings of the job being yanked out from under me like a rock being skipped across a pond.

I get to work and my boss is stuck in a meeting that makes him an hour late for our meeting. Lunch was stuff I don’t eat so no lunch for me. My computer profile is all messed up so my computer has frozen up and IT needs to play with it.

So the assignment that was a perfect fit all the way around for both me and for them? Nothing has shown up on it yet and it doesn’t look like it is a go. I think the agency screwed up. They have a new client, a really big one, and the person they had assigned didn’t show. That was the reason for the broadcast email I responded to. They had someone they could have put in place the next day that would have made them look so good but the person handling the account was too busy to get back to me until 9pm that night. Yup, he called me at home at 9pm. I feel sorry for him working that late but if this was such an important new client and they got egg all over their face by the person they assigned, I would think he would have made time earlier or passed it onto someone else. I did everything I could from my end, including calling multiple times to check in and a willingness to take things and run with them.

I have some job possibilities in my email inbox that I just don’t have the energy even to read beyond the basic skim. I don’t even have the energy to copy off my internet favorites from my work computer so I have them later on. This morning they were gone but the IT guy got them back.

So, I think I have managed to skip over the gibbering monkey of terror just fine but I have landed face first into the lethargy of despondency when things don’t work.

I have a full weekend ahead that hopefully will pick things up. I am thinking of heading out of town with this time off I have and just chilling at a friend’s house for a few days.

But at this time, I think I hear a ding dong calling my name.