I got home last night around 6-6:30pm. I had been reading a piece of fluff book and enjoying it on the way home so I curled up on the couch and read some more. Very soon afterwards I reached a stopping point and closed my eyes and daydreamed and dosed. Around 7:30, I decided I needed to get around to eating dinner. As I moved to get up, I rolled over and retucked my throw over me again. I knew that the consequences of not getting up would not be a good thing but vehemently decided I didn’t care. Obviously, I wanted to stay curled up on the couch. I closed my eyes again. The next time I noticed the time was 10:30. I faced the decision of getting up to eat and being up until at least midnight or later or trying to go to bed. Usually the process of transferring myself to bed wakes me up enough that I don’t sleep when I get there. But I knew I needed the sleep so I didn’t want to stay up. I tried to slide my way to bed. I was awake for a little bit because I started to notice I needed food (lunch was the last thing I ate around 2pm) but I did go to sleep. And sleep. I didn’t even do what has be normal lately in waking up in the middle of the night to head to the bathroom. My alarm was set for 5:30am in hopes that I would be able to get up at 6:30. This morning I didn’t even become aware of the alarm and my hitting snooze until 6:50. I finally got up around 7:15. I slept. Guess I needed it.

I am still feeling a little fragile and not sure why. I got a big dose of hiding out and being by myself last night. I am not in the best of moods, or very tolerant of the ideas and values of others. This morning, the security guard who always presents a happy face and has been saying how nice the rain is, exclaimed the delights of a second sunny day. I think I growled at him and quietly voiced my concept that another day without rain is not welcome in my world. I can see how his approach of being positive about the raining days must have really grated on the sun oriented people. I think it is sad that I am already whiny about the lack of moisture in my air. I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that while we will get some more rain, we are going to be getting a lot more sun soon and for a long stretch. That and I am arming my defenses against other people being so grateful about the sun being back. I don’t like the consequences of the large amount of rain we have gotten but I have liked the rain itself. Bah humbug.

So that is my state as of now.