I have been ofline for over a week. No email, no LJ. I don’t know when/if I will catch up on my friends list. If you have made an announcement or spread info around that I aught to have, send a link my way.

I took a week of for vacation. I am very glad I did.

Saturday, March 19th, I went to the Oracles of the Living Tarot. The performance was delightful and educating. The card I pulled for my personal reading was Strength. She told me what I already knew.

Sunday night, I caught the train to Redding to visit two friends of mine that I adore and see way too infrequently. I was welcomed to Club Serr for a second visit (I was there three years ago). I spent my days hanging with Don and the two kids, Drake and Logan. I learned a lot more about how to deal with small children (4 years and 14 months) than I hope to ever need. I even managed to leave the house every day. Monday was visit Cheryl in her new office. She has started her own Dr. office and it looks like it will be in the black in just six months. Yeah, she is that good. Tuesday was the grocery store, Wed was Costco and Thursday was comic book store day. In my four days there, I was fully exposed to City of Heroes and have absorbed more than I should have of that. Thank goodness I only have a dial up so I have protection from that addiction.

The time in Redding was a nice vacation from myself. I was able to leave almost all the crap going on in my life behind and be my old self. It felt like I remember myself from three years ago. It was nice to find out that way of being is still there.

Coming home was harder than it should have been. The train was scheduled to leave at 2am and I couldn’t get any sleep before hand. It didn’t show up until 4:30am and I didn’t sleep on the train more than an hour or two. And we were stuck waiting on the tracks for a long time throughout the trip (freight trains in the way/old or faulty signals/medical emergency/crew shift over, wait for a new crew to be shipped out). I have found out that I love being on a moving train and I hate being on a still train. I feel somewhat trapped. If they keep us informed it isn’t so bad but there is a lot of “why aren’t we moving” going on. I was suppose to hit Emeryville at 8am and got there at 2pm. And there was no sleep. I was wasted.

I was suppose to join friends for a birthday dinner with a limo at 7:45pm and decided that was just too late for me to be out. I had planned on sleeping during the day to catch up but I got home too late for that to work. So at 8pm I headed to bed. Woke up at 9:30am. That was good for the sleep debt but I was still not doing well.

My dizzys have hit again and harder than before (I have had them for three and a half years now). This time, they are not stopping after 3 to 9 seconds. They seem to be restarting before they end so they go on and on and on. I did not feel comfortable driving. I didn’t feel comfortable walking. It was like the world was vibrating. It is hard to do things when everything you see is jiggling off and on. TV isn’t to bad but reading is painful. Since having my eyes closed worked best, I ended up sleeping through the afternoon.

Sunday, the dizzys were better but still not good. When I am not dizzy, I think I am really fine and being silly being worried about the dizzys. When I am dizzy, it can bring me to tears with the frustration and hopelessness of dealing with it. I skipped out on church with Crystal and Karen. Afterwards they came and picked me up and we went out to Easter Brunch. I enjoyed that, even if I didn’t eat as much as I felt I could have at other times. Being dizzy messed with the appetite. It was good to dress up and spend the time with teh girls. Unfortunately, Karen is sick and needed to head home, and I wasn’t feeling good and wanted to lie down, so that was it for the day.

I spent the rest of Sunday on the couch watching almost everything I have on TiVo.

Today is a bit better. I find that I type with my eyes closed when I need to. Thank goodness for high school touch typing class. Now I get to find out if I can actually do my work and not just catch up on email and write in LJ.

I have a appt with my chiropractor this afternoon (if I get my boss to clear me leaving early). She does Cranial Sacral which we suspect will help with the dizzys. Next I think I will be making an appt with an eye doctor. I have never been to one so maybe there is something to explore there.