My attitude about life isn’t as bad as it has been recently. Step by little baby step, things have felt like they improved. Now I just need to let go of the concept that everything is horrible just so I can understand it and get the help I need. It is ok to let things be ok.

Baycon was not the joy and relief I was hoping it would be. There was good in it and there was bad. But I made it through and it wasn’t all bad which is good.

I was facing an empty weekend with just something to do Sun evening so I didn’t even bother to get out of bed until 4-ish on Sat. I got the idea that since it was the first Sat of the month, it was New Wave City night. It has been years since I have gone. I called some friends and two showed up (jadecat9 and alleycat) and we danced the night away. fresne and capricious_k and I saw Shrek 2 Sunday (great movie, loved it). Afterwards we sat and talked in a park getting a chance to just hang. I did my monthly Ridhwan thingy that night. So, like it typically happens, I went from an empty weekend to a very full weekend pulling practically an all-nighter on Sat and going from one thing to the next on Sunday, finally getting to bed at 9:30pm. If I didn’t panic about having nothing to do, I would have nothing to do.

So life is getting a little better but I still don’t feel all that great. That is because I have these stupid allergies that might be a cold. They came on quick so I think they are allergies but they keep getting worse and I had a sore throat before the runny nose showed up. So, physically, not feeling that great.

Now I am faced with a dilemma. Going out dancing is great fun but the last two times have laid waste to me afterwards. The next Dark Sparkle is going to be at the DNA Lounge (where they do an internet broadcast of the music) and they are giving out double CDs. This Wed! Whaaaaa. I have plans for Wed night till 8pm in the East Bay. I could make it back to the city, but I am sick. Whaaaa! I wanna go dancing. I wanna get the CDs. Waaaa…

I must be doing better if I can whine over missing something like this.
It ain’t all roses but the dark miasma that was seeping into my life has pulled back some and appears to be on the retreat.